So, Saturday we got all packed up and into my cousin's car and drive the two hrs or so, nothing too interesting happened on the trip over, other than my grandmother realizing that she for got the meats for out sandwitches so we had to stop at a Bruno's in I think Fort Walton or something like that. Got to the center, it was on the beach and very pretty, I love being close to the water, the smell, wind, even the sun feels different...anyway so we got there around 9 something got our seats and waited for the assembly to start. So once it started we had like four different talks all of them very interesting though I was having problems staying awake because I only got 3 hrs of sleep before hand.

Anyway lunch came around and we had our sandwitches chips and cookies. Well my grandmother had to go take her meds and my aunt and cousin walked off, and not many of you know this but I have this fear of being around a whole lot of people and not having someone I know with me. It just freaks me out and with over one throusand people there I kind of started panicing. Well I looked over and spotted a brother for my congragation who I always say hello to and talk to every now and again. He saw me and walked over, wanted a hug but I was use to giving hand shakes tp brothers so it was a little odd, but then again he is a vry odd person, kind of like me, socially accward and all of that.

Anyway we stood around and talked about why I haven't been going to the meetings like I use to. He said that he missed seeing me there, and the deep answers I gave. I told him that I have just been depressed, and feeling lazy and useless, and that has really messed with my studying and taking in all of the things I need to inorder to keep my studies. And well if I make a scedual then I feel like I've gotten into a rut, and then I get even more depressed. He just nodded and told me somethings because he goes through the same things.

He then asked me if I ever wanted to kill myself when I get depressed like that and I told him no when truth be told I wanted to once, and that was after I left Izzy, I just hurt...so much...anyways my grandmother showed up and we talked for a little while longer with him. Then got up and walked around outside, saying hello the the brothers and sisters we knew, walked along the boat dock and watched some ducks bob up and down while they were fishing. It was really nice, kind of wished we could have blown off the assembly and spent the entire day on the beach. So we came inside and sat back down I made a few phone calls, while waiting for the talks to start up again. It started around 1:30 and lasted until 4.

We then checked into our hotel and I started to get undressed then realized that I didn't pack any jeans, I had my pj pants but I wasn't going to wear them out to Olive Garden, also I noticed that I didn't pack any tennis shoes so I had to wear my hookcer boots everywhere, and my feet are still killing me...so we called my aunts and retup a time to meet at Olive Garden and left, I was the only one still dressed up...>.< Anyways we got seated and had dinner, I got this mango drink that was really yummy but my aunt didn't think so. She acted just like a little like and made this squished face along with a nasty sound.

Anyway dinner went well alot of giggles, and my grandmother got drink off of a half a glass of wine, and was acting all funny and stuff. So after dinner we went to Publix for more meat, cheese, water, and asprin for my feet. Then to go get some doughnuts. Once we got back my grandmother and I got into a little fight but got it all worked out before I went to bed. And well I slep nice and long in that soft bed. Got back up around 6 showered got dressed packed and went to the assembly much of the same thing happeded Sunday as they did Saturday. 'cept when we were leaving, we got on the road and headed back to home. Car ride was the same as always, nice view good talks and jokes, even better music. I had fun but I was hapy to be home. I got undressed and into going out clothes that didn't have anything to do with a skirt, and headed off to dinner with my uncle grandmother and cousin.

We went to a Mexican place had some good food then back to my cousin's, and played guess what? Rock Band all night, finally got home 'round 1:30 in the morning then crashed. Anyways over all I had a great time, it was nice to learn new thens and to get some helpful words from a person who doesn't know me all that well, but still cares 'bout me. I guess he missed me saying hello to him. At any rate I'm gonna go get some lunch or something.